Now I’ve got 7 pairs of Adidas from none at all. The interchangeable stripes are cool. Luv it alot man…
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第一次当我见到你
你说你紧张的忘了呼吸
记忆里我只想玩玩而已
在一起没想过这问题
你说你从来没有忘记
我们第一个夜里
我一边说我爱你一边喘着气
sorry 我爱你是指你的身体
我不知道你的需要
你对我的要求我从来没做到
你怎么受的了
但我总是见到你微笑
痛苦总是往肚子里吞掉
只希望有一天我能明了你的好
我假装对你不在意
假装失去我的记忆
为了隐藏以前痛苦回忆
我选择放弃
放心去爱人的权利
因为我不相信自己
不相信你
不相信一句话叫做真心真意
我选择绝情绝义
你把我当作情人我却把你当作敌人
我的人生就是充满猜疑忌恨
不要浪费精神在我身上寻找永恒
执迷不悔只会在你我身上造成一道道永远的伤痕baby
能不能就对着我说爱我
能不能就陪着我天长地久
不要对我若即若离让我伤心泪流
能不能就对着我说爱我
能不能就陪着我一直到最后
从今以后剩下的路要你陪我走
你一定觉得我坏谁都不爱
随你去猜我是在什么心态
面对你给我的爱
你对我好我就对你越坏
但我心里一直有声音跟我告白
它说不能没有你的存在
好怪想爱却又说不出来
为何心软为何心软
为何你从不会对我心烦
已经有了答案我却不敢去看
面对你不再反感
我发现我冰冷的心感受到你的温暖
该怎么办我现在爱你会不会太晚
你是唯一我想跟你在一起不想再和你分离
oh~就算外面的女孩子她们叫我baby
在我心底只有一个老婆叫做vicky
不知道该怎么说但我知道怎么做
我不会一错再错忘了以前痛苦的过程
我们要的只是结果
你问我会一起多久?
我不知道大概一辈子够不够?
牵着你的手往前走我只听到你说
能不能就对着我说爱我
能不能就陪着我天长地久
不要对我若即若离让我伤心泪流
能不能就对着我说爱我
能不能就陪着我一直到最后
从今以后剩下的路要你陪我走
能不能就对着我说爱我
能不能就陪着我天长地久
能不能能不能能不能够
对着我说爱我伤心泪流
能不能就对着我说爱我
能不能就陪着我一直到最后
就一直到最后
Warning!
This is one of those bad negative aura post. Don’t read if you are in the same condition as I don’t want to be blamed for spreading bad aura.
Let’s start off with everyone else. Ruzhi calls it tsunami, Juliana calls it Avalanche… I call it quicksand. Sucking and drowning me in, deeper and deeper. I’m now helplessly crying out loud for help but because I’m in a desert and no one could hear me no matter how hard I waved my hand. The more I struggle, the deeper I’m in it. Soon, the sand will cover me and I shall drown in it. It’s just matter of time. I have more than 10 items in my todos, tons of overdue readings and revision, not to mention on coming new languages to learn, projects and assignments, soon midterm exam will follow suit. Everyday I look at my calendar, all I can see is a very colourful sight of it. It is colourful because it is being filled with different events that I need to do and handle. I’m losing grip towards my life. I’m really lost in managing my life. I’m stressed every single second and trembling most of the time for being helpless. Unable to sleep is also one big headache to me as I seriously can’t continue losing sleep and having migraine going to classes. Every night, I will wake up to looking at the clock thinking that I overslept or have unfinished task that I need to handle. Even dream is all about that. Not sleeping well is really killing me…
Here’s how my weeks have been and going to be…
endless tight schedule…
I should be rehearsing for my MacNUS seminar on the 10 Free Macware as well as Intro to Leopard now. It’s tomorrow and I’m really not in the mood in teaching people when I don’t have the time. But commiments have to be fulfilled, hence left me no choice here to prepare eventhough I’m no in the mood to do so. I wish to have a universal remote control where I can pause the time and take a deep breathe or a good sleep before going in the war again. It’s really like a war. Im constantly fighting out there with the rest of the battalion against PHP, JSP, Servlets, Server, Network, Security, Databases, Projects, Web Design, Java Programming, Information System, General Biology, bio Lab, Employee Management, Presentation, Video Shooting, Assignments, weekly tutorials, database lab, tonz and tonz of readings so on and so forth… So many to tacle per person… Feeling weaker and weaker almost to surrendering myself by putting up the white flag. But I can’t. I cannot even stop and take a break at all. I need to constantly fight, fight and fight. Endless fight and not knowing how to fight. I’m worried that I might lose the war. The consequences that I have to bear shall I lose this war, is too much for me. Hence, it’s a no turning back war. One way or another, either I fight or I die.
Sick and tired of not knowing what to do. Perhaps I’m still not good in managing my time. Perhaps I’m really disorganized. But I’m really trying hard… I really can’t get it on track. Maybe my methods are wrong. Maybe I’m not trying hard enough? I seriously feel helpless and lost that I’m launched into my depression. I hate being in depressed mood. I can’t do anything at all. I just wish to get a break from all this hectic lifestyle. I cannot even get a break during midterm break. It will be filled with projects as well as catching up with readings. I’m afraid, I’m really afraid that I’m going to fail badly. Quicksand is sinking me deeper and deeper… Deeper and deeper into drowning myself… Will somebody please help me?
