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Sheila On 7

Aku tak percaya lagi
Dengan apa yang kau beri
Aku terdampar disini
Tersudut menunggu mati

Aku tak percaya lagi
Akan guna matahari
Yang dulu mampu terangi
Sudut gelap hati ini

Aku berhenti berharap
Dan menunggu datang gelap
Sampe nanti suatu saat
Tak ada cinta kudapat

Kenapa ada derita
Bila bahagia tercipta
Kenapa ada sang hitam
Bila putih menyenangkan
ha… ha…

Aku pulang….
Tanpa dendam….
Ku terima… kekalahanku…

Aku pulang…
Tanpa dendam…
Kusalut kan .. kemenanganmu…

Kau ajarkan aku bahagia
Kau ajarkan aku derita
Kau tunjukkan aku bahagia
Kau tunjukkan aku derita
Kau berikan aku bahagia
Kau berikan aku derita..

Aku pulang….
Tanpa dendam….
Ku terima… kekalahanku…

Rebahkan kalbumu
Lepaskan perlahan
Kau akan mengerti
Semua..

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Sampai nanti suatu saat
Tak ada cinta kudapat..

Tomorrow shall be the day that I’m doomed. Perhaps everyone said I’m not the only one that will, but I’m much more worse than you. I think I might be handing in an empty paper for not knowing how to answer the question. I just did the past year examination and i know nothing about what I need to do. I’m really a screwed up kid. I’ve never have such problem like not knowing what to do. I always knew what to do if anything happened. there was always contingency plans. But tomorrow, i will go in empty minded and come out empty handed. it is a critical semester for me as i need to raise my cap but however, i don’t think it is possible. i foresee alot of things being taken away from me, my sch mates, my camera, my position, my parents, my life and everything else. i’m broken… im just a disappointing kid and i let everyone down. hopeless me… sigh… argh!!!! im frustrated with my behaviour…. why do i have to let things happen over and over again!!!! im angry with myself… nothing can be done now… NOTHING! i’m so fucked up cuz i screwed up this semester again. It wasn’t supposed to be like this. Where is my dream of once to even become the Valedictorian? Where is the me that would fight back no matter wat? Where is the me that won’t give up esp when everyone is looking down on you? Where???

I’m lost… I can’t find myself anymore. I’m nothing and nobody but empty. No more dream… no more hope… no more…….

Save Me…

I feel my wings have broken in your hands
I feel the words unspoken inside

When they pull you under
And I would give you anything you want
Well all I wanted
All my dreams have fallen down
Crawling around somebody save me
And two warm hands break right through me
Somebody save me
I don’t care how you do it
Just stay
Stay
Come on
I’ve been waiting for you

I see the world has folded in your heart
I feel the waves crash down inside

And they pull me under
I would give you anything you want
Well all I wanted
And all my dreams have fallen down
Crawling around somebody save me
And two warm hands break right through me
Somebody save me
I don’t care how you do it
Just stay
Stay
Come on
I’ve been waiting for you

And all my dreams are on the ground

Crawling around somebody save me
And two warm hands break right through me
Somebody save me
I don’t care how you do it
Just save me

I’ve made this whole world shine for
Just stay
Stay
Come on
I’m still waiting for you

Been trying to sleep for the past one hour. Tossing and turning around. Sweating like hell. I just can’t sleep. Can’t sleep and can’t study… How happy eh… The exam is really wearing me off… I think I screwed up my semester again… Wondering when will I learn my lesson…. sigh…

夕阳无限好，只是近黄昏…

tense 1 |tens|
adjective
(esp. of a muscle or someone’s body) stretched tight or rigid : she tried to relax her tense muscles.
• (of a person) unable to relax because of nervousness, anxiety, or stimulation : he was tense with excitement.
• (of a situation, event, etc.) causing or showing anxiety and nervousness : relations between the two neighboring states had been tense in recent years.
• Phonetics (of a speech sound, esp. a vowel) pronounced with the vocal muscles stretched tight. The opposite of lax .

verb [ intrans. ]
become tense, typically through anxiety or nervousness : her body tensed up.
• [ trans. ] make (a muscle or one’s body) tight or rigid : carefully stretch and then tense your muscles.

DERIVATIVES
tensely adverb
tenseness noun

tensity |ˈtensitē|
noun ( dated).
ORIGIN late 17th cent. : from Latin tensus ‘stretched,’ from the verb tendere.

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starve |stärv| verb [ intrans. ]
1 (of a person or animal) suffer severely or die from hunger : she left her animals to starve | seven million starved to death | [as adj. ] ( starving) the world’s starving children.
• [ trans. ] cause (a person or animal) to suffer severely or die from hunger : for a while she had considered starving herself.
• ( be starving or starved) informal feel very hungry : I don’t know about you, but I’m starving.
• ( starve someone out or into) force someone out of a place or into a specified state by stopping supplies of food : the Royalists were starved out after eleven days | German U-boats hoping to starve Britain into submission.
• [ trans. ] (usu. be starved of or for) deprive of something necessary : the arts are being starved of funds.
2 archaic be freezing cold : pull down that window for we are perfectly starving here.
DERIVATIVES
starvation |-ˈvā sh ən| noun ORIGIN Old English steorfan [to die,] of Germanic origin, probably from a base meaning ‘be rigid’ (compare with stare ); related to Dutch sterven and German sterben.

Thesaurus
starving
adjective
the world’s starving children dying of hunger,
deprived of food, undernourished, malnourished, starved, half-starved; very hungry, ravenous, famished, empty, hollow; fasting. antonym full.


Quoted from Oxford Dictionary

累了，想找个可以停泊的靠岸
似乎大家每天在人生中的停停走走
盲目的乱闯乱撞，
为的都是要找属于自己的避风港
好友说得对
家
永远都是我们的避风港
曾经我认为独立的我离乡背井的日子
自己绝对可以应付得来
但日子天天的过，
每次回家，父母一回比一回的老了
而自己却一次又一次的让他们失望
很害怕自己会应证了
树欲静而风止，子欲养而亲不在
也许自小看着我妈每次想起我阿嬷，那伤心欲绝的样子
不禁让我害怕，我也会来不极尽我的责任
但其实仔细想想
我们目前的最大任务，就只有不让父母失望。
但人性的弱点总是嚷着我不放
对我予取予求
总让它们唆摆着我的人生
要怎么样才能根除它们呢？
恨自己总是
如此软弱。。。
意志力低。。。
抵挡不住诱惑。。。
恨自己。。。

Baby不要再哭泣
这一幕多么熟悉
紧握着你的手彼此都舍不得分离
每一次想开口但不如保持安静
给我一分钟专心 好好欣赏你的美

幸福搭配悲伤
痛是在我心交叉
挫折的眼泪不能测试爱的重量
付出的爱收不回
还欠你的我不能给
别把我心也带走 去跟随~

每一次和你分开
深深的被你打败
每一次放弃你的温柔 痛苦 难以释怀
每一次和你分开
每一次 Kiss you Goodbye
爱情的滋味此刻我终于最明白

幸福搭配悲伤
痛是在我心交叉
挫折的眼泪不能测试爱的重量
付出的爱收不回
但欠你的我不能给
我才明白爱最真实的滋味

image taken from http://www.apple.com

I’m letting my baby precious Powerbook go and it is selling at $3,300 SGD or $7425 MYR. The original price of the Powerbook G4 is $3,762.00 SGD as listed last time.

The condition of the Powerbook is in excellent condition as I love my mac like precious baby. Of course, some minor normal wear and tear is unavoidable. It is being purchased in September 2005 with an insurance coverage. I’m letting it go because I’m planning to upgrade to the better version of it.

Here’s the spec of the Powerbook
-1.67Ghz PowerPC G4
-15.2″ TFT [1280 x 854]
-80GB HDD (ATA/100, 5400rpm)
-512MB PC2700 (333MHz) DDR SDRAM memory, single SO-DIMM, expandable to 2GB
-Slot-loading Superdrive (DVD+-RW/CD-RW) Drive
-ATI Mobility RADEON 9700 with 64MB DDR SDRAM
-One FireWire 400 (up to 400Mbps)
-One FireWire 800 (IEEE 1394b) port at up to 800Mbps
-Two USB 2.0 ports (up to 480Mbps each)
-One VGA, S-Video and composite video output
-Built-in 56K V.92 modem (RJ-11)
-Built-in 10/100/1000Base-T Ethernet (RJ-45)
-Built-in 54-Mbps AirPort Extreme (Wi-Fi 802.11g)
-Built-in Bluetooth 2.0+EDR
-One PC Card/CardBus slot supporting one Type I or Type II card
-Two built-in stereo speakers; Internal omnidirectional microphone
-Full size, illuminated keyboard with ambient light sensor
-Modem cable, power adapter, AC wall plug, power cord, lithium-ion battery

Software
-Mac OS X v10.4 Tiger (includes Spotlight, Dashboard, Mail, iChat AV, Safari, Address Book, QuickTime, iCal, DVD Player, Classic environment, Xcode Developer Tools)
-iLife ’05 (includes iTunes, iPhoto, iMovie HD, iDVD, iWeb, GarageBand), Microsoft Office 2004 for Mac Test Drive, Zinio Reader, Art Directors Toolkit, FileMaker Pro Trial, GraphicConverter, OmniGraffle, OmniOutliner, QuickBooks For Mac New User Edition and Apple Hardware Test

Bundled Items
-Carrying Case
-AppleCare 1 year International and 3 years Local Warranty.
-Insurance Coverage until 2007
-Original Box

If you are interested in getting this 15″ Powerbook G4 1.67Ghz, do leave a comment here or email me at blacklighter (at) gmail.com .

IGNORANCE IS BLISS…

Daniel Powter self-titled album Daniel Powter has been quite a soul food for me for the past whole week. His style of music has a different beat and he dresses real cool too. His music is fresh, catchy yet able to bring u ups and downs with his tune. His debut hit, “Bad Day” talk about his bad day just like your own. Other songs that I find interesting is Song 6, Free Loop, Styrofoam, Lost on the Stoop and Give Me Life. There are other songs in it that are worth listening. Get it if you are interested. You will find yourself in love with Bad Day.

Songs Listed :
01. Song 6
02. Free Loop
03. Bad Day
04. Suspect
05. Lie To Me
06. Jimmy Gets High
07. Styrofoam
08. Hollywood
09. Lost On The Stoop
10. Give Me Life
Rating : 3 out of 5 stars

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