Today marks a new year 2006. Alot of things happened last year and the craziest of all would be me ended up in Singapore. I guess 2006 will be a very important year in my life. I’m turning 21 years old this year. Whatever I do after my birthday, legally, its under my obligation and not my parents’ anymore. I now own the every step I take next in my life. The funny thing is, the only feeling I could feel about this is Fear. I fear taking the wrong steps and i fear for the unknown in my life. Never had I have a new year greeted with fear. Usually it’s happiness and a great new start. But now, I’m feeling afraid and lost. So lost that I’m even worried of thinking about it.

Perhaps it’s normal for people to feel fear. Especially for me, someone that all along knows what I want for sure, all of the sudden, you don’t know what you want anymore, of course you will feel fear. Anyway, hope I will be better later. I guess being one of the few earlier one to turn 21 years old aint something I can handle very well. Seems like there are alot of responsibility that I have to take care of. Not that I’m someone irresponsible before, but still…

It’s funny that I don’t have any new year resolution this year. Perhaps I was too sick back few days that I didn’t really thought about it. Or maybe I know I won’t came to fullfil it, hence there isn’t a need to have one. Anyway, Happy New Year to everyone. Hope that it’s gona be a great year ahead. All the best.