it has been long since im in such mood.
a mood so bad that it would take years again to heal it.
i know i’m in deep trouble if i wallow in all this again as it would b back to square one to where i am today.
depress and disappointment attack me everytime when i’m weak…
back to life where everything sucks…
wishing that everybody would leave me alone in my world…
cocooning myself in the world that i could control of…
dreams… hopes… love… only in the world i own…
everything i want everything i ever wish for will be there…
so deep in my thoughts not being able to differentiate reality and dreams…
indulging in dreams weaken the inner self of mine…
crying helplessly for the dreams that is so out of reach in reality…
give up? stand strong?
i shall not hurt the people that love me and support me dearly…
i shall go against it before it get worst…
be strong and grow up…
oh dear, what happened?
Comment by susan — December 16, 2005 @ 03:07