December 30, 2005

Worse

Posted in [Ramblings]

People asked me why do I sounded so upset in my last post…. It was pretty depressing. Nothing is going smooth, first non stop coughing, then sucky results. My CAP is even lower than a 3. How am i supposed to get it worked out next semester? After having the serious flu for more than 10 days, finally I went to see the doc and the doc says I have Bronchitis. Don’t worry, it’s not a serious one. Well well, how worse could it get uh?

Today marks the end of the bidding of first round. I throw in 866 points for just a 15 vacancy stupid Econs module. Didn’t even rush back through the last moment as there is nothing more I can do even if I know the bidding point. Doesn’t even have enought points to make it. I’m going for Introduction to Political Sci either to clear my GEM. Hopefully I won’t b outbided like I did last sem. Hopefully those tutorial slots goes fine either cuz I have gotten myself a pretty neat timetable if everything goes well.

Still coughing… Wondering how long does it take for me to recover… Gona head back to Singapore on the 3rd. Don’t feel like leaving my home. I’m really a very homely person i guess. Leave me alone you stupid flu…


December 27, 2005

Photo - Ryan Cabrera

Posted in [Interest], [Music]

Photo
by Ryan Cabrera

A photo, can say a thousand things
But it can’t say the million things
I wanna say
A photo, can capture the way we were
But it can’t capture the way we are
Cause you’re far away

What it’s like to know you
What it’s like to touch you
Yeah…

When you told me that you loved me
Were those just words?
You can’t tell me you don’t need me
And I know that hurts
Cause I’m looking at your picture
Cause it’s all I got
Maybe one day, you and me will have
One more shot

Timing, lost minutes and moments
Yeah, I might be lonely, girl
But I’m not afraid
In a second, it all comes right back to me
No, nothing’s forgotten now
Yeah, everything’s saved

What it’s like to touch you
What it’s like to know you
Yeah…

When you told me that you loved me
Were those just words?
You can’t tell me you don’t need me
And I know that hurts
Cause I’m looking at your picture
Cause it’s all I’ve got
Maybe one day you and me will have
One more shot

You were my life
You were my faith
You gave me hope everyday

When you told me that you loved me
Were those just words
You can’t tell me you don’t need me
And I know that hurts
Cause I’m looking at your picture
Cause it’s all I got
Maybe one day you and me will have
One more shot


December 24, 2005

Posted in [Interest], [Artwork]


想起我们拥有过的从前,
依恋着不可能留住的过往,
痛占领了崩溃的我.

闭上眼,
暗涌的泪水像缺堤似的,
一点一点 … 你看不见.

害怕醒了这一切不是梦,
风干了的泪痕
折腾着疼的麻痹的心.

累蔓延着…


December 14, 2005

Self-Pitying

Posted in [My Life]

it has been long since im in such mood.
a mood so bad that it would take years again to heal it.
i know i’m in deep trouble if i wallow in all this again as it would b back to square one to where i am today.
depress and disappointment attack me everytime when i’m weak…
back to life where everything sucks…
wishing that everybody would leave me alone in my world…
cocooning myself in the world that i could control of…
dreams… hopes… love… only in the world i own…
everything i want everything i ever wish for will be there…
so deep in my thoughts not being able to differentiate reality and dreams…
indulging in dreams weaken the inner self of mine…
crying helplessly for the dreams that is so out of reach in reality…

give up? stand strong?
i shall not hurt the people that love me and support me dearly…
i shall go against it before it get worst…
be strong and grow up…


December 13, 2005

爱我别走

Posted in [Interest], [Music]

爱我别走

我到了这个时候还是一样
夜里的寂寞容易叫人悲伤
我不敢想的太多
因为我一个人

迎面而来的月光拉长身影
漫无目的地走在冷冷的街
我没有你的消息
因为我在想你

爱我别走
如果你说你不爱我
不要听见你真的说出口
再给我一点温柔

爱我别走
如果你说你不爱我
不要听见你真的说出口
再给我一点温柔

我到了这个时候还是一样
夜里的寂寞容易叫人悲伤
我不敢想的太多
因为我一个人

迎面而来的月光拉长身影
漫无目的地走在冷冷的街
我没有你的消息
因为我在想你

爱我别走
如果你说你不爱我
不要听见你真的说出口
再给我一点温柔

爱我别走
如果你说你不爱我
不要听见你真的说出口
再给我一点温柔


Creative Not So Creative

Posted in [Interest], [Gadgets]

everyone wants a slice of the MP3 player market pie, hence…
Apple vs Creative

Creative Zen Vision:M vs Apple iPod

the picture speaks for itself, hmm…. I wonder why….


December 10, 2005

Return of My Lappy

Posted in [Ramblings]

Finally my lappy is back. Flawless and smells brand new. Can’t believe I live without it for 12 days. It feels so good to finally get it back again. My next plan is to give it a reformat but there is some problem doing so. I don’t know where should i back up my files. Should I get a new HD as an external drive? Guess not, cuz i’ve got bigger plan that I need to save lotsa money for.

First thing i need to do is backup my 16GB of songs. Then I’ve gotta move all the movies out. Back up my bookmarks, calender and address book. Programs that i’ve downloaded must be backed up as well. Should I do a bigger partition for my Mac2? Well, I’ve got 80 GB in total. If i keep my music in Mac2, I will need bigger space cuz now it’s just 20GB for that partition. But if I keep my music at Mac1, I don’t think i need such a big partition for my Mac2. What proportion should I go with? 60 and 20 or 50 and 30 or 40 and 40? Any suggestion? Still gotta decide on that. Then I shall start on my reformat. I really need a fresh install cause i felt that my Powerbook is clogging at times especially playing my iTunes due to running low on space.

It has been 5 months since I used Powerbook. All I can say is I have no regrets changing to Mac. I doubt I will ever turn back to Windows. It is really a great experience even though my Powerbook got dented and the casing have to be replaced. The amazing part is that it survived the fall. The graphics and sound quality is undeniable. Everything bout it is just so much fun. Gotta write more about my experience when I have the time to do so.

Anyway, my biological clock is totally screwed… I sleep at 7 am and wake up at 3-4pm. Gotta adjust it back asap man… Couldn’t afford to live like this anymore.

[edit] : my biological cloci is still screwed despite it is holiday… ;)


December 8, 2005

Love

Posted in [Thoughts]

Love is WORTH what all you are sacrificing for and even more…


December 1, 2005

Zouk Out

Posted in [My Life]

Went to Orchard this afternoon and follow by clubbing at Zouk for itz Mambo Jambo. My foot was really sore and numb by the time we reached Zouk. We reached around 1040pm, it was a long queue in and when we finally got in, we couldn’t find a table to hang on to. Got ourselves some good drink one for one since we are there at the right time for the Midnite Madness offer. It was my first time there, it was also my first time out clubbing. But the atmosphere was familiar, perhaps I organized too much of crowded, lights all over the place plus strong blasting music events before. The Malibu Pineapple was strong and nice. Needed that kind of shot to give me a kick. Had some Corona Extra as well, it was cooling. Music was great either, with familiar songs that everyone knows how to sing and dance to. We pushed ourselves to the dance floor and happily dancing away.

Everything was fine until time past midnite. Dang Dang Dang… Just like Cinderella need to get back to her ugly and shabby clothes, things got kinda ugly at Zouk. As my friend was abit high on alcohol, we took her to the Restroom to catch some air. We practically pushed and wrestled out from the dance floor. It was really really crowded at that time. I saw people from NUS and even some of my coursemate that I don’t know all over Zouk. We saw people from all walks of life at the rest area. Some drunk until he fall flat slapping on the floor together with his girlfriend, there was a girl who was drunk as well that cries so hard while complaining to her girl friend that is holding on to her about her sadness and etc. Some people are so drunk that they need their friends to drag them out of the place and drag them home. They totally lost their conscience and everything. I guess its really a common sight at a club.

We didn’t hang out much since the friend of mine is not feeling well. I guess she had too much of Malibu that she’s a bit drunk. Finally we decided to move on for supper at McD at around 2am. For finale, while we were walking out from the crowd, I suddenly felt a warmth on my back and when I turned back, I heard a ‘Oppsss… ‘. SOMEONE PUKED on my back. After saying the ‘Oppsss…’ the guy just went off without even apologizing. Gosh, if you can’t drink, don’t drink please. If you wana puke please don’t puke on a clean freak like ME! I was so disgusted and felt really really uncomfortable. Luckily the guy wasn’t having a heavy dinner or anything before he came, or else I really dare not imagine what would happen to me.

I bathed and wash my hair twice to get rid of everything right after I reached my room even though I have clean myself in the restroom at the club. What a good experience for a first timer! GROSS….

Finally the exam is over and so is my first semester. I’m now on holiday but I can’t make it home yet. Still gotta stay here for some CCA until the 16th of December 2005. My biological clock is totally screwed that it is impossible for me to sleep unless it’s 7am. That’s why I’m still here blogging even though I’m sleepy and drop dead tired. I really need to get myself adjusted back to the normal sleeping hour. Anyway, just a few more days to being with myself and left alone here by my friends without my powerbook and ipod….