When I read today’s news about my country, I feel really really bad for what had happened in the past few days. Alot has happened and at some point, I feel ashamed for what happened in our country. I don’t know whether it’s the country’s fault, the government’s fault or the society’s fault that all this happened. Here’s a summary of what happened in the past few days.

MMS showing Royal Police mistreating a Lady
A MMS showing a Royal Policewoman directing a lady that is stripped to do ‘ear squat’. First of all, what we should question is, why would the Royal Police do such thing that really abuse the basic right of a human. Even though she’s being detained, but police are not supposed to execute her themselves. I mean as we used to study in PA, police plays the role in enforcing the law and not take the law themselves in their hand. Another serious question is, Why is such video being taken down in the lockup itself? I mean it’s obvious that no one from the public can go into the lockup to capture that video. That means the only person that are able to capture this video, is the police force themselves. If there is someone else that is not the police force inside the lockup, that means there is something wrong with our police enforcement system. What is the motive of capturing this video is the next question that we should ask. Did the video being captured is for the nation to know about the ugly side of the police force or it was being captured to share among peers and finally reached out to the public? If the reason is the latter, then there is a even more serious problem in the professional ethics of the police force that need to be questioned. Anyway, I sincrely hope that it’s not the latter reason that the video is being captured. — Malaysia Kini

[Edit] Anyway… I don’t think it’s a good idea to go on spreading the video. I think the Lady deserve some respect as she has already have enough of humiliation.

Royal Police sued girl for Reporting Bribery
Girl got stopped for not having a ‘P’, police asked how u wanted to solve it, paid for it and it’s really a typical thing that happened in a country. But this time, the girl reported it and the Police filed a suit to sue the girl back for defamation. I don’t know what to say about this. But clearly, something is wrong somewhere. Ether the ‘P’ is gotten too easy then the bribe won’t be asked and the report of bribery + sueing won’t happened. This one, gotta be researched more clearly to settle it from it root. — The Star

Session turns into a circus
As usual, the sandiwara again. Our beloved MPs turned the Dewan into circus.

The situation inside the Dewan was like a circus when a deputy minister accused opposition MPs of behaving like monkeys.

Deputy Minister in the Prime Minister’s Department Datuk M. Kayveas was replying to questions about backlog of court cases when Fong Po Kuan (DAP – Batu Gajah) asked him to name the oldest case which had yet to be settled.

Kayveas then began to explain why there was a backlog.

When Lim Kit Siang (DAP – Ipoh Timur) pointed out that he was not answering Fong’s question, Kayveas replied: “Even with foreign visitors (European Parliament members) here, you are behaving like a monkey. See, one monkey behind and one in front.”

He was referring to Fong in the back row, and Lim in the front.

Kayveas fanned the temperature further when he said the reason for the delays was because lawyers who became opposition MPs constantly sought postponements.

When Lim and Fong protested, Kayveas again accused them of behaving like monkeys.

Fong demanded that Kayveas withdraw his remark. He did, but changed his mind when the opposition MPs continued to criticise him.

The pandemonium ended when Ramli ordered Kayveas to withdraw his words.

— The Star

How embarrassing this is to happened infront of foreign visitors and it’s actually receiving coverage from foreign media. You don’t call people “Monkey” in such a serious place where you discuss important decision of a country. I really think Kayveas should learn how to respect others. If he made the mistake himself, what right does he have to call other Monkeys. I seriously wonder where is his basic manners. Being a deputy minister of the Prime Minister’s Department, he’s a disgrace to our PM and our country.

After reading all these, all i can do is let out a long sigh… and shake my head…. felt that it is better for me to head back to my study and be ignorant rather than knowing what’s going on in the reality.

Ignorance is a BLISS….

Steve Jobs Commencement Address

This is the text of the Commencement address by Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios, delivered on June 12, 2005, at Stanford.

“I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. I never graduated from college. Truth be told, this is the closest I’ve ever gotten to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That’s it. No big deal. Just three stories.

The first story is about connecting the dots.

I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out?

It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: “We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?” They said: “Of course.” My biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would someday go to college.

And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents’ savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn’t see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn’t interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.

It wasn’t all romantic. I didn’t have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends’ rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5¢ deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example:

Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn’t have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can’t capture, and I found it fascinating.

None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, its likely that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.

Again, you can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something - your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

My second story is about love and loss.

I was lucky – I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just released our finest creation - the Macintosh - a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board of Directors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.

I really didn’t know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down - that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me – I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.

I didn’t see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.

During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I retuned to Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple’s current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.

I’m pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn’t been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don’t lose faith. I’m convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You’ve got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking. Don’t settle. As with all matters of the heart, you’ll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don’t settle.

My third story is about death.

When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: “If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you’ll most certainly be right.” It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: “If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?” And whenever the answer has been “No” for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.

Remembering that I’ll be dead soon is the most important tool I’ve ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything – all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn’t even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor’s code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you’d have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.

I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I’m fine now.

This was the closest I’ve been to facing death, and I hope its the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don’t want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life’s change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of other’s opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960’s, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and Polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.

Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words: “Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.” It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.

Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.

Thank you all very much.”

– Steve Job, CEO of Apple n Pixar

Truly an inspiring one. Steve Job is really an inspiration to people who have dream and wish to follow their dream instead of surrender to the reality. I’m going to take this as the motivation for me to work harder towards what I believe and dream for not by dreaming it, but realizing it. Hope it can be your motivation either.

Urgh.. my back is so sourish now… i really wish someone would come and stand on my back and make it sound… sigh…

wondering how am i going to finish my MNO…

Do you know what? McD is actually serving Fine Dining Gourmet Dish.

When I see her, I thought that we are at a fine dining restaurant serving Gourmet Dish. Oh well… It’s the new tepanyaki set offered in McD though… Perhaps using a knife and fork is more civillised than using hand. Hmm….

Don’t ask me why I post this but I find this scene disturbing in McD today. Sorry if I might offend anyone… But for me, using hand to eat burgers is more fun… ;P

As usual my programming is a screwed up… But I can’t be bothered anymore… Need to focus on other subjects… Anyway, KidChan dropped by to give me some support again… so kind of him… my idol leh… Thanks alot to all my friends that supported me in going through this tough period as well… Just so glad to have you guys by my side…

Btw, my whole biological clock is screwed. I can’t sleep at all when i’m supposed to sleep. 2 exams again tomorrow… Hope it’s not a screw up again… Pray hard…

It has been so long since I get to sleep until I can’t sleep at all rather than waking up in a sore eyes. Back few days have been tiring but at this very moment, I felt energized. Perhaps I just need more sleep to maintain my energy level.

Don’t know why but all of the sudden, I miss my friend back in Batu Gajah. Although most of them are no longer in BG, but still I’m sure the memories will always be there. I miss those time when I flunk my shoe over Soo’s head and landed in front of the Principal (Yes, i did something like that but hey, it was an accident…) , I miss those time when we call ourselves the BG Rascals, I miss those time when we gather every year for chinese new year, mid autumn fest, christmas, birthdays and whatever occasion that you can think of, also miss those time when we squeeze 12 people in one car and being drove around or rather swing around by Appy’s bro. How could I forget those time when Fei Mun shouted damn loudly when we are watching horror movie together not because of the movie but because of a stupiak lizard (Mind you, she’s a lawyer to be now), our first movie together, A Bugs Life. Times when Peat Kwan, Soong and i called ourselves with something silly and laugh like there’s no one else watching. Those time when Peat Kwan and I was emcee and I just can’t help stop laughing when Peat Kwan said “thank you, Puan Shanti” (ok, that was just me being plain silly). When we have to go to Loon Siu’s house and beg altogether from Aunty, so that we can go out together. Then there are those time when we skipped class to go do whatever that is irrelevant to what we should do and there was Singing session after computer class in Primary. We are really the rascal in school as teachers can’t do anything to us cause they need us to score for them. Though it may sound like we are the arrogant and cocky bunch but i guess we are more of the spice in the boring school life. I still remember how silly we are when we are about to enter the secondary school, we decided that we shall all switch to speaking cantonese instead of mandarin. We are just a silly bunch of kids hanging out together cause at that moment, all of us are the only friends that all of us have. So many of the moments we shared as all of us grew up together.

Even though time changes, and everyone now is in their own new life searching for their best road to be taken for their future, having new friends, but they are the friends that I will never forget and remain in my heart forever. I don’t know why, but flashes of us being together keep on flashing in my mind and make me miss those happy and special moments so much. Best wishes to everyone in their future and hope that things between us will still remain the same no matter what. I love you guys. BG Rascal Rocks! ;P

Gosh, this few days had been tired ones. Everything is coming to an end, it’s goin to be final soon, and when it ends, it’s going to be the end of the semester. Most of my lecture has already ended and in 2 weeks time, it will be final exam.

Everyone is stressing, reading room is packed with people, the sales of the nescafe can drinks increased tremendously and you can see people around the comon area even if you go down at 5 or 6 am. Whenever you want to sleep, you feel guilty of sleeping, your body stop listening to you and get tired easily, you rub your eyes so hard that your eyes balls are going to fall but yet, you are still sleepy. My body has been not functioning as well as it should as it got sourish and tired easily even after I just woke up. My eating habits also changed as I’ve been craving for food constantly even late at nite or you can say early in the morning. Am i in stress? I don’t know.

My friends said I don’t seem like I’m in stress because everyday I’m still happily wasting my time laying around doing nothing. I don’t know whats wrong with me. I’m in fear actually, but somehow, something is stopping me from working hard. But I couldn’t let myself ruin anything anymore, so I got it written down, whatever that is due when in a to do list and I’ve got my calender filled. I guess this is a good way as I’m better in knowing what is due and what need to be done.

Anyway, time flies so fast that I’m sure 4 years are going to pass in a blink of an eye. Hope i get to appreciate the time left and not throw it away again. Well, lets not hope. But instead, work it out. Anyway, just a post to boost up my motivation.

WORK HARD dude!
No more wallowing in self-pitying as no one pity you if you don’t do good!

珊瑚海
周杰伦

海平面远方开始阴霾 悲伤要怎么平静纯白
我的脸上 始终挟带 一抹浅浅的无奈

你用唇语说你要离开 那难过无声慢了下来
汹涌潮水 你听明白 不是浪而是泪海

转身离开 (你有话说不出来) 分手说不出来
海鸟跟鱼相爱 只是一场意外
我们的爱(我们的爱) 差异一直存在 (回不来)
风中尘埃 (等待) 竟累积成伤害

转身离开 (你有话说不出来) 分手说不出来
蔚蓝的珊瑚海 错过瞬间苍白
当初彼此(你我都) 不够成熟坦白 (不应该)
热情不再 (真爱) 笑容勉强不来
爱深埋珊瑚海

毁坏的沙雕如何重来 有裂痕的爱怎么重盖
只是一切 结束太快 你说你无法释怀

贝壳里隐藏什么期待 我们也已经无心再猜
面向海风 咸咸的爱 尝不出还有未来

转身离开 (你有话说不出来) 分手说不出来
海鸟跟鱼相爱 只是一场意外
我们的爱(我们的爱) 差异一直存在 (回不来)
风中尘埃 (等待) 竟累积成伤害

转身离开 (你有话说不出来) 分手说不出来
蔚蓝的珊瑚海 错过瞬间苍白
当初彼此(你我都) 不够成熟坦白 (不应该)
热情不再 (真爱) 笑容勉强不来
爱深埋珊瑚海

#include < stdio.h >
#define NUS “No, U cant Sleep”

int main(void) {

int time; time = 0;
while ( time < 6 ){

printf ( “\n%s”, NUS);
}

return 0;

}

been studying programming for the whole night. Now my brain is not functioning well, but what to do, exam is on Wednesday and I’m 7 chapters away from where I’m supposed to be at. 14 chapters are not possible to be finished in one night… * sobs *