this is smart…

http://www.frederiksamuel.com/blog/2005/10/playboy.html

Just came back from Bukit Timah, gosh, there were so many food and I came back with a satisfied stomach.

Anyway, this blog is dedicated to poor Susan who missed everything… Well, nobody asked u to go back to Malaysia when we are going for food in the first place…

Check out all the good food we had…

Grilled Fish

Table fulled with FOOD!!! yum yum…
“Au Chun Kit, open your eyes lar ooiii….”

Here’s a toast for Sue who can’t make it to the foodfest… hehe… ;P

Cheers….

No Wafer IceCream for you. too bad…

oh well, I’m rather tired after whole day of stressing in the PE and out to Bukit Timah. PE exam was scary, once the invigilator say : ” You may start now…” Everyone is actually typing away. Imagine those ‘tap top tap…” goin on and on… Gosh, I thought we were supposed to think of the Algorithm first instead of just typing away. Well, I screwed it up as usual anyway…. sigh…

Rest in Peace, our First Lady - Datin Seri Endon Mahmood. My deepest condolences to our Prime Minister Datuk Seri Abdullah Ahmad Badawi and his family. Feeling sad for her loss. She’s indeed a fine and kind lady.

Sometimes i feel that i’m the biggest joker in life. There are times that i thought everything will turn out just the way i hope they will. Now i can ensure you that this is really one big joke because things will never go the way you hope them will but instead, they will turn out just the opposite way that you want them to be.

I used to think that I have alot of friends, my social circle is big etc… But at times, I realize… it’s not actually as big as I thought. In fact, it’s small… I guess it’s really difficult for me to get real good friends as I’m such difficult person to be with. I’m fussy, I’m a clean freak, I’m arrogant at times, I don’t talk much and most of all, I’m very very suffocating at times. I guess sometimes when you spend too much time with me especially talking to me, you will feel that you want a break from me. Do I scold people alot? I don’t know… Maybe I really do. Cause some of my friends, even if I didn’t scold them, they would be intimidated to talk to me as they said I’m going to scold them. Perhaps it’s my bad. I mean, why on earth do I bother about other people’s business so much right? It’s not like I don’t have enough problem to handle myself. I’m just being a joker for caring about my friends. Sometimes I even got scolded for caring for them. It makes me felt that whatever I do for them has lost it purposes. Nowadays, I rarely try to befriend and get close to anyone anymore. I rather keep quiet. I guess the cliche “Silence is Golden” that my mum has taught me eversince I’m young is really true. Sometimes I should really just keep my mouth shut.

to be continued…

Finally, all my Term Test is over… ( Anyway, it’s just 2 paper.. i know… i know… it’s peanuts to some of my friend who has 7 papers ) It’s time to relax and start working again… sigh… It’s a never ending agony…

Anyway, went to Ikea just now. I don’t know why, but I love going to Ikea. I felt really happy whenever I get to see all the things there. I just felt like buying all the things there but must watch out for my dad’s wallet. Must have self control. Was excited and wide awake just now but, all of the sudden I felt tired. I guess my body is really starting to go cranky. Better watch out for myself…

Nothing much to blog about as too much ups and downs to be mentioned… all in all… life is just a neverending agony… nuff said…

My life is actually a total mess now. It’s like a roll of wool all messed up where you can’t even find where’s the beginning of that wool that I really have no idea where to start fixing it. I think i need help. I feel the pressure that is pumping up in my heart. Fear is really killing me… How can i fixed the mess? I really need help…

歉疚

對妳有著太多的欠疚,
那是我一輩都還不清的.
沒有你對我的理所當然,
根本就不會有我.
沒有妳燒水給我的一天,
我想我不會渴死,
沒有妳打包的晚餐,
我想我也不會餓死吧.
那是因為那時的我已難過死了.
根本就無法沒有妳在我身旁.
我對妳有太多的理所當然了,
也讓你難過和傷心.
只期望從今以後,
我會好好珍惜我身邊的一切.