10 more days to leaving my beloved house. Don’t feel like leavin as I’ve used to the comfort of my house and I’m afraid it’s going to be difficult for me if they don’t have clean toilets there. ( yes, I’m a sanitary freak) But I’m a good adapter, so I guess I’m gona adapt into it fast. Having the thought of leaving my home and not being able to come back in time if anything bad happened really scares me. A friend of mine who went to Ukraine for study didn’t even get to see her dad for the last time when her dad had a heart attack and passed away. Seeing my parents getting old and yet I’m not being much a help but problem to them really makes me feel guilty. Praying hard that everyone here will be living healthy and prosperously. ( now I sounded like I’m in a Chinese New Year mode )

There used to be alot of birds, different and rare type where we don’t usually get to see around my neighbourhood, but now all of them are gone. It’s really sad seeing this especially there are still people coming here during weekend to capture them. I mean, I miss seeing them chirping happily whenever they want where we will get excited and watch through the binoculars. But now, they are all gone. Wondering whether they will come back or not. Thinking of this even makes me harder to leave home, especially things are gona be different once I’m gone. Maybe certain things or people might not be here anymore, I really can’t bare the sadness thinking of all this. Especially my love ones, how could I ever live without them.

Anyway, I should learn to let go as there will be no longevity and forever (”无常”) in this life. But deep down inside, I know I can’t. I guess I still need alot of meditation and wisdom as I’m still stubborn and not willing to let go of materialistic stuff. I lack of the wisdom to be a wise people as I’m still living the life the way I’m living now even though I know it just won’t work if I go on this way. (”执迷不悟”)

Hopefully one day, and soon enough, I could open up my mind and see for myself the right path that I should take instead of going on with this blurish life. (”浑浑噩噩的生活”)

Been handling new comments for the whole morning today. I’ve got 30 new comments and stil counting from different people praising how good and how useful my website is. How flattery uh? But all of them came from similar email address. gosh, spam that come with praises, this is my first time getting it. STUPID SPAM!!!

One thing that I don’t understand is, they don’t have any url to lure anyone to click, so what sort of purpose does those flattering spam serve? anyway, after doing a search, I found out that it might be trying to penetrate into our spam system. I wonder how they managed to penetrate into my spaminator though.
Here are some of the comments
- Keep it up (like I do ) Great site - loved the bit about yourselves.
- I admire you on the willingness to share this info with others - good luck!
- This was a great site. I needed to find something for my Homework and This site helped me out so much! Thanx alot!!!!
- Great Website! It helps me a lot with my tough homework. I’m not so hot in that class Thanks for the hard work, keep it up! ( What does this have to do with the poetry I wrote in mandarin?)
- Lovely. Made my day (which is saying something)
- nice site keep it on

and a whole lot more

Anyway, it has been a good day for me, but the lack of sleep due to a stupid mosquito bothering me last night is giving me quite a problem. Especially my eyes, it’s burning and I could even hardly open it, but I can’t go to sleep, not now.